Movies and music

Hey Internet family and friends!

I am pretty excited about the movies coming out in the next few months. So many great flicks from The Hunger Games (which I already saw and I thought was very well adapted) to Snow White and the Huntsman to Dark Shadows to Think Like a Man... I love watching a good movie. For me movies that really captivate me are those that have emotional as well as intellectual depth... if you are able to throw in some comedy as well then that is a winner in my book! Some recent movies that I've seen that are worth mentioning are:

- Africa United about kids from Rwanda who journey to South Africa to attend the world cup. It was very heart warming and funny. It was creative and cleverly put together, I definitely recommend it.

- Another movie that I re-watched recently was the illusionist which has a great ending. I'm not going to divulge anything about it because I don't want to ruin it for anyone interested in it. It stars Edward Norton and Jessica Biel. It's a mysterious, romantic film with Gothic themes of love and death and the hereafter.

Movies that I've seen recently that I would NOT recommend watching are:
- Mirror Mirror, I love Julia Roberts but the movie wasn't funny... it was kind of boring actually and there was this random Bollywood dance during the credits at the end lol Sadly, that was probably the most entertaining part of the whole movie.

I've also been listening to some new albums in the last few weeks. Notably that of Rihanna - Talk that Talk which is pretty good but I must say, not as good as Nicki Minaj's new album - Pink Friday. Usually I'm hesitant about giving the artist credit about the melody or beat because I know usually they have no say in that but I like Nicki's flow and how she puts her songs together, I just wish her content and language would improve. I can't help but feel bad listening to it.
I used to love Damien Marley, in particular his Welcome to Jamrock album, he also had a unique way of putting together his songs and lyrics which I really appreciated but he hasn't released anything new in ages (I'm not counting the colabo album he did with Nas because I felt it lacked the Caribbean vibe his other songs possessed)

New and renew

Hey y'all so again it's been a while since my last post but I just felt inspired to write something since I haven't for so long. A few things that have been on my mind and in my heart lately are as follows:

1. How do you know if you're on the right path? I know what I love doing (performance) but I can't dedicate as much time as I'd like to getting better because I have to work so hard to do what I should be doing (psychology) which I also enjoy but not as much as performance. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change a lot of the choices I made growing up, in terms of my education and hobbies. I would've spent a lot more time on improving my dance technique and ability as well as my acting and vocal skills. These are things that require work as well and I really wish I had worked on them more. It's never too late to do it but it's a lot harder now.

2. I love making friends and I feel connected to people really easily but how do you avoid getting hurt? I have had bad experiences feeling close to people in the past only to find they don't feel the same way. Unfortunately I have been given a heart that feels too much. It sounds really lame I know. Even typing it, I want to erase that sentence but it's the truth. I get so happy and joyous making great friends only to feel rejected by them in the end. I have developed a complexity that makes me feel inadequate and unworthy of real friendship as a result. I often ask myself "Why doesn't so and so want to hang out with me? Why don't they confide in me? What have I done to upset or turn this person away?" Don't get me wrong I absolutely love all my friends and family and am so utterly grateful for each one and thank God for them in my life, but because I care for them so much and put them on a pedestal, all the more reason it's hard when I feel rejected by them. In the end I try and tell myself not to take it personally and that I'll make new friends as my journey through life continues.

3. Self esteem: How important is it to have it? Does anyone truly have it? What does it mean and what does it look like? Does self-esteem mean you have no insecurities? Do the people who say the "cockiest" things really have self esteem or are they just covering up their own insecurities? What are you allowed to do to get it? How much of your physical self do you think it's OK to alter until you feel more confident? We change our size, our hair, our eye colour, our clothes etc.. why can't we change our noses and thighs while we're at it? I have to live with what I see in the mirror every day, shouldn't I be worried about making me happy and not you who only has to look at me every once in a while? It's not like I can afford to change anything lol but if I could I would and I hope no one would judge me.

Speaking of change here's a recent pic of my new haircut.

 

Well I apologize for the heavy topics today guys but I've had all these issues and more on my mind and in my heart recently and this is just a way for me to get things off my chest. Hope there's no judgement and thanks for reading and visiting my blog. Sign up if you want to follow me and get regular updates. 

Much love to everyone out there

Maureen